We have totally reached the bargaining phase. I desperately want to plead and beg. Please don't give us up, why aren't we good enough? I think that I'm going to dehydrate from all the crying. Fawn was here this weekend and I had a girls night with her and Lisa. I cried so much my under eyes are raw from rubbing.
This is totally embarrassing to be writing for everyone to read, but it seems to be my release of sorts.
I'm going to move in with me parents, the kids and I are going to move. We don't really fight, but I'm not as emotional when we're not so close. He's moving the first week of April and we'll move back in to the house then.
Fawn brought Faleen her 5 week old baby with her. She's so innocent, she has no knowledge of the pain this life can have. I hope that she never will have to know. I wish my own babies could escape without pain. Put it all on me, just protect them.
One day I'll feel good enough for something, one day I will be able to wear eye makeup without wiping it off, I will be able to hear songs without having moments when I can't breathe. One day....I hope.
Becks seems to have some luck in love! He wanted to kiss Faleen, she didn't stand a chance
K
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