I feel like I'm in a daze. There are so many things I need to get done, so what did I do today? Took a shower. I have a final this week that I haven't even opened the book. The realization that he will be gone in 3 weeks....It won't ever be the same. We will never sneak out for lunch again, watch TV and joke together in a way that no one else understands. I won't be able to call him when I'm having a bad day, have someone there to tell me that I have to keep going. It's hitting me and it's hitting hard. Some days I want to close my eyes and when they open everything is fixed.
I'm thinking I need to go spend some more time on my knees.
I am thinking of you and your sweet kids now. I know that doesn't help, but know that you are in my prayers and thoughts. Keep your knees bent and your chin up :) Love you Koren!
ReplyDeleteOh Koren my heart aches for you. I tried to call but we just kept playing phone tag. So I wanted to apologize for being so harsh over the phone. I felt like I said some things that came out before I thought of how they would sound. Please call me if you need to just vent or scream etc. I love you gal and I know that you are so strong and will pick yourself back up and find a beautiful life, a true happily ever after. I will be keeping you in my prayers. lOve you gal.
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