Considering that I will be driving for 13+ hours tomorrow I decided I should write something now. I don't know if I'm ready for this. I was planning to go to AZ in 2 weeks but this sudden trip is really difficult for me to think about. I'm not ready, I'm not ready to face my entire family, I'm not ready to have to admit my mistakes to them, I'm not ready to have to say goodbye to a dear member of that family, I'm not ready to see him, I'm not ready to let my children go to him. I won't be there, I can't be the mama bear and ensure that they are protected. I'm not ready for court tonight, I'm not going to have time to get ready for court on monday. There must be a reason for everything, but I want it to slow down, stop even. I don't feel ready, but I'm not going to run, I will hold my head up, let a few tears roll down my cheeks as they have been doing in almost a constant state for the last few days, but I will look ahead. Take each challenge as it appears, and keep looking up.
Something good....I have faith that it will all work
K
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I feel for you. chin up :)
ReplyDeletegood luck girl and drive safe!
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ReplyDeleteKoren my heart aches for you and what you have to go through this next week. I can't help but shed a few tears for your uncle only knowing so well what that feels like. My support and prayers are with you. Good luck in court, perhaps it will be surprisingly peaceful. Or atleast I hope that for you. remeber the bathroom wall hanging......
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